haha its raining. it never rains here. its rains just about as much as i update. well anyway just thought i might talk to my journal for a while. i could care less if anyone reads this, i just need a journal right now. life has been ok for the most part. havent been in any trouble and no one hasbeen having any problem. well my i read something and i started thinking. in order to plan our future we have to remember the past. sometimes we have to live in the past.which isnt a great thing for everyone but some people have to go through it i havent been feeling deprreesed or happy or quite any emotion. it is very awkward. Although some might make the observation that i do show emotion it does not always mean that i am feeling the emotion. some might say there is something wrong with me but i say there is nothing good and nothing bad coming out of this so there doesnt seem to be a problem. and if a problem arises i simply junp over it never looking back. well long entry but thats what these things were made for. i'm attracted to a girl but dont feel  i  should anything about it, not in fear of rejection but just because i dont feel the need for anything. i dont know if my point is understood but how is a journal going to understand me. i suppose i come back in the past and criticize my writing later but for now i will live in the present.

Friends is always a good thing. Although it is just friends, there is always hope of greater things. It's funny because of the fact that I didn't even think to ask her how she felt about me. . . . I'll find out later. At the moment, I am busy trying to get closer to my friend.